By C. J. Stegall-Evans
God grant me the serenity to
Accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
Wisdom to know the difference
( Reinhold Niebuhr)
I have been writing a lot lately, and although I find it cathartic the consequences are both good and bad. The good consequence is I am honest with myself more and can’t hide behind conscious or subconscious emotions. The bad consequence is that I have to admit for the last week or two I have not been fully present for my life.
I feel overwhelmed and have been wallowing in past mistakes, would have, could have, and should haves. This is no way to live one’s life. I am grateful that writing always puts me back on the right track. I cannot change the past only cultivate a brighter future.
I work really hard to be present for my life and am unsure of how I could slip. Anyway I am back and feel a renewed appreciation for life. I cannot get the time back I spent worrying about things I cannot change but I can make the most of the present time.
Writing always brings me back to the present, and allows me to deal with issues I thought were too large to tackle. Writing grounds me in ways I never could imagine when I began journaling as a child. In writing I find serenity, a safety net that it enables me to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
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